dying is taking too long

(Source: homophobic)

It’s Alec’s birthday and I’m so depressed that I don’t want to see him because I’ll probably ruin it. I want to be dead.

  1. Camera: Canon EOS-1Ds Mark II
  2. Aperture: f/3.5
  3. Exposure: 1/180th
  4. Focal Length: 90mm

I’m lonely and fat and I want to be dead.





(Source: legthinspo)





"The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."
— David Foster Wallace (via offfme)

(Source: yeshecholwa)

All I want to do is smoke cigarettes and cry.


My newest tattoo.



eating disorders are competitive. it’s twisted but you compete with other people to “be the sickest” 

so if you’re sat there thinking “i’m not sick enough to deserve to get better” then i promise you, you are

because normal, healthy people don’t have these thoughts. normal people don’t sit there and think “damn i wish i could have broken my arm in more places so that i am allowed to let it heal” 


"You punish yourself for being yourself."
— My counsellor. (via onceadoring)