Trigger warning: anorexia, self harm, rape. This is a place for me to say the things I'm ashamed of.
My newest tattoo.
eating disorders are competitive. it’s twisted but you compete with other people to “be the sickest”
so if you’re sat there thinking “i’m not sick enough to deserve to get better” then i promise you, you are
because normal, healthy people don’t have these thoughts. normal people don’t sit there and think “damn i wish i could have broken my arm in more places so that i am allowed to let it heal”
This isn’t fair.
Selfie spam because I feel good
when did i get this fat
my five emotions:
not high enough
forgot how hurting myself makes me feel better. i like bruising my eye though because its easier an less messy that cutting, i just dont want to have to go to the hospital or anything because orbital bones are so easy to fracture.
I gave myself a black eye two weeks ago the night I went to inpatient. I wish it had broken something.
please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you
I want to cut like this again since I can’t do my arms anymore.
My counselor thinks I’m an alcoholic and a drug addict.
I’ve spent my entire summer in that hospital. My friend attempted suicide last night and I don’t know if she’s alive or not and if she’s dead I won’t be able to handle it and will probably need to be readmitted.